Thursday, January 26, 2006
I'm now like a machine gun that's fully loaded...Yes, I feel kinda bad, kinda mean, kinda sad sometimes but somethings we just have to take it as it is = )
I said no regrets liao...no regrets girl, no regrets, stop harping on it...
Ok back to today's blog...I am trying to get a sample resume out. This week's been really busy as CNY is around the corner and there's lots of shopping and helping around the house to do. Not to mention I am still at my FYP, and I had to switch classes here and there to fit everything. Just now, I was like a zombie walking aound, surviving on 5 hours of sleep. Now I just ended yoga and my eyes are drier than ever. Oh man, later still got tuition. Ok, this is a sure way to try to lose weight, but how come I put on weight instead? The prawn rolls for CNY hahaaz....see lah, me the greedy pig.
Ok, I better do my work, I can go on and on and carry on typing but this blog is a way to vent out my thoughts, it can never help me do my work. Duh.
Cheers! Jiayou( Actually, I dun really wanna add oil to myself, I am already sorta oily and sticky after walking around uni) = ) Heez...
Ganbatte...
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Monday, January 23, 2006
Alright, I don't know if I am ever going to regret my decision but I guess I must stick to what I think. It's getting draining that people keep asking me questions that I will not know the answer to cos it is still too early to tell. Hardly slept the last night cos I keep pondering upon what I want in life. I know what my goals and ambitions are and I do not want to look back and regret my life just because I make a mistake of not being able to cope.
I will not go into anything I don't feel sure of. There are so many buring questions that cannot just be answered by words, but rather by time and actions. Ponder ponder ponder, I don't like thinking so much and so far...but the more I look, the blurrer it becomes. That's when I decided to give it up. I am sorry to be such a realist. But I tell myself that I will have no regrets and I must stick with it. There are more important things in life, aren't there? But once you make a wrong move on a straight road with no U-turn, you end up in the sea. And I don't want that to happen.
Today's resolution: No more such thoughts from now on and focus on what needs to be attended to urgently.
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Saturday, January 21, 2006
These were the first words from Computing classes I learnt to program. It's been a long road since then and I realised how much I have grown up. Later meeting my darling girl pals, especially my dear friend who just came back from overseas not too long ago. How much I miss those days when we were young and had no worries man.
Now waiting for the printer to finish printing my slidesAt the back of my mind there's FYP, work to catch up etc etc...And I can't wait to take photos later Heeeheezz....My dream cam...here I come...
Still printing sianz...
Wah 55 pages of colour...
So tired, these few days raining here and there, damn good to sleep...
Ok, no "damn" words...No "shit" words and no "kns" words anymore from this line onwards...
Yawnz...so sleepy supposed to catch up with some other pals today but I too busy sigh...
Ok, enough crapping just to fill the blog haha, wasting the CMOS, NMOS transmissions man...
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Thursday, January 19, 2006
Hi there! Ok, I am at my point of exhaustion already cos I ran from my hse all the way to mrt then to 179 stand this morning only for the stupid bus to close it's door. Not to mention I haven't exercised in ages. How did I manage to lose weight? I think I managed to maintain this weight cos I have been so busy doing a lot of stuff other than exercising.
Ah well, enough about weight. I am now trying to entertain myself in the library. Attended career talk this week and have been to all the Career Hub's classes already. So what's my problem now? The problem now is that I don't know if I want to be an engineer. I like studying, knowing...basically I love knowledge and I thrive on it. I like to know how things work etc etc...Engineering work has many types, there are so many different types of engineers and different work out there. But I am also interested to broaden my horizon and gain exposure not just in engineering but in other areas as well. And personally, I think I can't stand staying silent for too long, haha...But then again I like to discover and learn. What do I want? I want something that is well, challenging, something I can learn and open up to. It does not necessary have to be in my field of study I guess...well, the road to self-discovery and job discovery continues = )
Hmmm.....
Ok, this week is so freakingly packed. Everyone is so stressed not because of work but more because of FYP. Mine is at the still there stage, just went to zap a few more references and read through until now so sian, come to PC to entertain myself hahaahaz..
Shit I keep yawning, later how to go for tuition? Wah, 6 pm already, better get moving and stop crapping. Yawnz, caffeine here I come = )
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Sunday, January 15, 2006
Anyway, I am over the mood today liao. I am not saying we don't have the right to make our own choices, but more of like since birth we are this type of people so most probably we will end up as this type of adult. And it depends on the environment we got through as well, nvm...I am over the "Who am I" thingy. Now more interested in the amount I spent shopping.
Okie, these few days got G2000, Zara, Esprit, Mango, Topshop etc etc...so been shopping a lot hahaz...especially for CNY clothes and workwear.
Can't wait to meet u gals up heeheez...
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Thursday, January 12, 2006
Ever reach a stage whereby you wonder why you are called so and so. Why you are supposed to be so and so and why you are doing this and that. I have reached many such instances so many times in my life. Sometimes it just hits you when you least expect it and suddenly you go, eh my name is "ABC" ah? Why am I this particular person and what is there that I have to do?
Yes we all have our goals, our beliefs and religion. I am not exactly referring to that...ah well...nvm if you think I am incomprehensible, that's who I am sometimes I guess. It's like we are living in the identity of who we are, but who are we actually? I mean, I know we are humans, we are supposed to do this, this and that...I am not really referring to the raw facts, but more of the inner you. Everyday we engage in impression management, we try to present ourselves in a way we are supposed to be. But is there really a supposed behaviour for human beings? I mean, how some all animals know how to eat, sleep, move etc? It's like everything has been preprogrammed already.
In case you still don't understand, it doesn't matter cos I expected it. People always say I think too much...Hmm.....It's like every path we chose is somehow pre-programmed, it's like animals are supposed to grow up, produce the next generation, look after them and grow old. We are all here to experience life. Hmmm...
It's called the "Who am I?" thing. Ah well...
On a lighter note, yesss, I finally got the Anna Sui mascara I wanted. It better work haha, I want the long curled up eyelash thing yeah!
So glad my sec sch mates met up, I miss ya all man. I realised how much my mentality has changed over the years and how childish I was in sec sch heeheez. And my long-time friend Chen, I think we kinda grew up along the same thinking instead of drifting to opposite ends, someday we should go backpacking huh?
Ok then, back to my identity called "Moon".
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Tuesday, January 03, 2006
Hi,
been stressed over my inconsistent results. Just now so blur, actually burnt my finger cos I dropped the tweezer and forgot that the pan was hot. Aiyah, stupid girl.
Sigh...
And seriously speaking, we didn't have any holidays at all, did we...
Anyway, me two fingers bandaged with a friend saying she wanna burst my blister. So bad...Hahaha...
What else? Hmm, I got to get busy with analysis liao loh.
Seeya = )
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