Sunday, February 14, 2010
I know its CNY and I shouldn't be writing all this but this is really all my personal thoughts lately.
What is the meaning of life?
Is it to find a partner, get married, have kids, see them grow up then retire and die?
Is it to work your whole life away then one day find out that you have a sickness and you have less than a year to live then start to regret the things you could have done?
Is it to control diet and keep yourself healthy but still end up having end stage cancer and still die in the end?
Is it to earn a lot of money, have a lot of status and wealth but nothing meaningful to bring to the coffin?
Is it to devote your whole life away to be a swinging bachelor/bachelorette but still end up lonely? Or end up dying of a heart attack while visiting a prostitute?
Is it to devote your wholfe life away to a particular religion and live the life of that particular religion religiously?
Is it to attain satisfaction from being the top and then end up having the hradest fall of your life when you realise how inhumane you have been in order to get to the top?
So what is status?
So what is power?
So what is money?
So what is being desirable?
So what if you are darn good-looking?
So what if you have a lot of girlfriends or boyfriends? What is there to be proud of?
That these people are attracted to your looks or your money or your status?
Simply meaningless.
No matter how much money you earn, you can never bring all that to the coffin.
No matter who you marry, you never know when he or she is going to cheat on you or when he or she will change.
No matter how many children you have, you never know what they will do to you when you are penniless and of no use to them.
So at the end of the day, what is the meaning of life?
Why are we here for in this world?
To suffer, to pay our debts and figure out what we are here for?
Will we really figure out what we are here for?
Or will we only try to psycho ourselves that we know what we want and end up living that lie our whole life?
Or have you never really thought about this question in the first place and never wondered what we are here for?
Alright, I know everyone thinks I have been thinking too much. But I don't think I have thought too much. I feel that people think that way 'cos they have not seen the things I have seen despite not being very old in age. A lot of people my generation haven't seen so many hard knocks in life yet because they have everything planned for by their parents and they just follow their parents' wishes.
I want to figure out my purpose in life. I want to find my polestar because when I die, one fine day, I want to leave without regrets and know that I have done my best in this lifetime.
I want my life to be meaningful, well-lived and memorable.
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